It’s Me Again.
It has been a long time since I did this. I went away for a few months and did not tell Christian or Charles where I was going. The last time we talked, Christian was about to go to court. His case was heard and he got six months in jail and two years probation. However, he was let out early on good behavior and the fact that the jail was full. Little James went to stay with my mother because I was not at home yet. Meanwhile, Charles still has some feelings for me because he has been emailing me ever since I left. I have not answered any of them. One month into my trip I found out that I was pregnant. Christian had been trying to have a second child but things are different now. Unfortunately, I am not sure exactly who the father of this child is.
So now that I am back, I think that it is time that I have a serious talk with both Christian and Charles. So, I invite Charles over to our house for Sunday brunch and he arrives on time. I invited Charles to have a seat on the patio while I bring out the food. Before I did that, I called Christian to eat and. He was very surprised to find Charles sitting on the patio. I officially introduce them and announce that brunch will be served in a few minutes. They looked very uncomfortable when I went into the kitchen but this cannot be helped. I get back a few minutes later and there is complete silence. Not a sound can be heard from either of them. So, I proceeded to share the food and tried to make a little small but it is point-less. I tried to eat for a minutes but I know that it was time to get this conversation started.
I told them that I invited them to lunch because we had something very important to discuss. I then said that I was pregnant and that one of them was the father. Christian and Charles looked at me with dumb founded looks on their faces. It was a very hard thing for me to say but I got through. I felt better after I had said it but soon realized that it was not going to be an easy situation. Christian broke the silence and asked how far along I was and I replied about two months. It looked as if he was trying to calculate when we were together last but was unsure because there was another man in the picture. Christian was visibly upset so he got up from table, went into the house and slammed the bedroom door. Charles was in shock and tried to ask a few questions. He asked what were the chances that this child could be his?; Did I still love him and he told me that if this child turned out to be his, he would support me emotionally and financially. It was a relief to hear that. I took his hand and smiled at him. He is a really good guy and I think that I hurt him. I hope that he does not end up hating me later on.
I went to clean up the dishes and straighten up the kitchen. Christian never spoke to me for the rest of the night. I did not really want to see him either so I slept in the guest room. The next day, I got up as usual but had to lie back down. I felt so dizzy and nauseous at the same time. I crawled to the bathroom just in time before morning sickness over took me. Christian must have heard me in the bathroom because he asked if I was okay. I gave a weak reply and rested my head against the toilet. It took a few minutes for me to regain my composure but I made it to the shower, got dressed and drove to work. It was going to be a long day and an even longer nine months.
