I had a hard time finishing my work for the rest of the day. My brain kept going back to the two conversations that I had earlier. My husband wanted to stay with me and work on putting our family back together meanwhile my ex-lover wanted to marry me. I am so confused right now. When I got home that evening, Christian had already made dinner and was in the family room with James. I said hello to them and gave my little James a big hug. My husband asked if I wanted anything to eat and I said no. Right now, I just wanted to be alone in my room to think about things. One hour passed; then two. I had gotten no-where with trying to decide what to do with myself. I needed a sounding board; someone I could talk to about all this. My husband had been fulfilling that role for years but this was something that I could not tell him. It would tear us apart again after we have been trying so hard to fix our messed up relationship. I did not feel like talking to a therapist while sitting on a couch. That could get expensive really fast. I really needed a friend; an understanding non-judge mental. So, I picked up the phone and called my sister Alex. She was a child psychologist so I was hoping that she could offer some good advice. She was not home at the time so I left a message for her to call me back as soon as possible.
I was feeling a bit hungry by now so I went into the kitchen to get some dinner. After dinner, I played a few games with James and put him to bed early. I was going to my mother’s house for Easter and I need to make sure that all his bags were ready and that he has everything he needed. Mom was coming to get him in the morning and James was very excited to spend some time with his grand-parents. That would leave Christian and I alone in the house for about a week and a half. Usually that would be something that we would both be looking forward to but things are not exactly as they used to be. After putting James to bed and packing his bags, I was on my way to my room when I saw Christian in the living room staring at the television. I said good night to him and started to leave when he turned and asked if I had given any thought to what we talked about. I smiled at him and said that I was thinking about a lot and that what I decided something he would the first to know. He nodded, said that it was all up to me and went back to his movie. As soon as I got to my room, my phone started to ring. It was Alex calling me back. She apologized for calling so late but was out on a date. He laughed and asked her how it went. I was told that the guy was weird and smelled like cheese and I cracked up laughing even more. She asked me how I was doing and what was going with me. Boy, did I have a story to tell her. I thought that maybe this was better done face to face so I asked if we could meet in the park during lunch tomorrow. She agreed and asked if I was okay. I told that I had a situation that I really needed to discuss and that it was a big one. She said okay and that she would be there for me. I went to sleep feeling good. I hoped that she could tell me what to do because I was so confused by everything.
The next morning I woke up early and straighten up the house a little as my mom was coming and I did not want her to see the house untidy. I made some coffee for Christian and proceeded to wake up James to get him ready to leave. My little boy was still sleeping and even when I gave him a bath his eyes were still half closed. My mom came at seven thirty and by then James was ready. She left and I jumped in the shower, hurried to get dresses and went to work. I got some breakfast from the cafeteria and went back to my desk. I looked at my watch and it was only nine o’clock. Three hours to go before I meet my sister. I hope she was ready to hear what I had to say. Now, all I had to do was get through the morning.
